by Becky Whetstone, Ph.D.

I am a Marriage & Family Therapist who specializes in helping people through the darkest days of their relationships, and I’m very passionate about it. I think that’s because I’ve been married four times and have faced many of the marital scenarios my clients face.

Having been married four times is not something I hide, but I don’t I openly advertise it either. That’s only because of the negative meaning so many people make up about it. Though we’ve come a long way since I grew up in southern Arkansas in the 1960s when divorced people were considered crazy and/or trashy, people still harshly judge those of us who have been divorced several times. In fact, many of my clients who are in a second or third marriage (or more!) and are miserable feel they should just white knuckle it rather than chalk up another divorce on their life’s resume. They just don’t want to bear the negative scrutiny; never mind the shame they’ll heap upon themselves.

The greatest thing that has come from my marital experiences is that I am married now to husband four and have the opportunity to get it right in a loving and mutually respectful relationship. I am thankful that my husband of three years – a gentle, intelligent and kind man – did not write me off six years ago when we met due to my red-flag-filled marital history. Instead, he sensed my genuineness and chose to experience me first-hand, over time, so he could make his own conclusions.

He says he was also encouraged by the fact that I was single quite a long while after my third marriage – almost 10 years. During those years I had not had one significant romantic relationship and had spent the time raising my two children (from marriage number two) and attending graduate school to become a marriage therapist. He was aware that I had been determined to figure out what what happened and spent enormous time and effort learning what I could about myself and the failed marriages so I could stop the pattern.

My marriage history makes me a better marriage therapist. I have a great deal of empathy for my clients and all they go through in a marriage that’s not working. I can report from painful experience what getting divorced feels like, how it plays out over the years, how children and extended family are affected and react, the loneliness, what it’s like to be a single mom, to date (awful), and how scary it can be to re-enter school and the workplace after many years.

I found divorce to be an agonizing experience containing numerous unforeseen after effects, and this flavors my strong bias to save marriages that can be saved. At the same time I know that if one or both people aren’t willing to work and change a situation that is tearing each other down, it is often an act of courage to walk away.

For some reason, my clients seem to get comfort from the fact that I have had almost every marriage experience one could imagine, and I share with them the many ignorant and naive choices and decisions I’ve made in my 57 years. I think they find hope in the fact that yes, I have been blind, but now I see and thrive in a most positive way.

The reason I thrive is that I finally grew up and faced what I was doing to create the relational messes I got myself in, which is a crucial step in turning your life around. When I faced the things I didn’t like about myself, I was able to do something about it. The most painful truths I had to acknowledge were:

•  I was dependent financially on others. Until my 40’s, I had never wholly supported myself financially. I always had relied on my dad or husbands or some windfall to supplement me so I could enjoy the upper middle class life I longed for.
•  I desired to be near power and ambition.  Like moth to flame, I was attracted to highly successful, powerful, ambitious men who basked in the spotlight and boy did I love tagging along. This was something learned in childhood from my family who gave standing ovations when anyone hobnobbed with the local rich and powerful. The problem is that this type of man is usually more interested in their success than anything else.
• I could not be alone. In my early adult years, I was literally terrified to spend a night alone in a house, so I would get myself in relationships to avoid that, and when it became apparent to me that the relationship wasn’t working or fixable, I wouldn’t do anything about it until I found someone else to slip in their slot.
• I wasn’t making something of myself because of shame. I ridiculously thought I wasn’t smart enough to excel in the fields I was interested in, so I didn’t pursue what I might have if I had believed I could. Instead, I married men who had what I didn’t and rode along on their back.

Once I realized what I was doing, it was a short walk to conclude that I needed to:

1. Do whatever it took to become financially independent doing what I love. This meant facing my shame about not being smart enough to succeed in graduate school and start the process to become a therapist. My new healthy thought was: “You are going to do whatever it takes to get into grad school and to pass the classes. If you fail, at least you’ll know you tried and we’ll figure out something else.” Once I knocked out the prerequisites and got into school I loved it and excelled. Now I had proof that I wasn’t as dumb as I thought. The year I graduated (2006) I was able to support myself and my children financially for the first time.

2. Learn to be alone at night in my house by being alone at night in my house. After three weeks of doing this, my fear went away and I was fine –  not only fine, but I learned to enjoy it.

3. If success and ambition was important to me, I had to get it for myself, but as I got healthier I found I didn’t require it anymore, so I adjusted my value system to finding a simpler life with people who have integrity, are positive-minded and kind, and who really care about me, and me about them.

Each one of my marriages contained an important life lesson that I needed to learn so that I could become the person who is able to passionately help her clients in their own life and marriage struggles. I m thankful for the wisdom and compassion gained, and the peace and contentment that came from the journey.

<em>Becky Whetstone, Ph.D. is The Marriage Crisis Manager: http://www.marriagecrisismanager.com
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Hello, everyone! I’m Tiffany, Dr. Becky’s new assistant. I’m really excited to be working with Becky and looking forward to meeting new people. Once you enter the office, my smiling face will usually be the first you’ll see. Let’s get acquainted! I’ll take a moment to introduce myself. I have a lengthy history as an English teacher. After nearly 15 years in the classroom I decided it was time for me to jump off of a cozy, predictable ship and swim off to find adventure elsewhere. I pursued my first love, writing. Thanks to wonderful connections I’d made while teaching, I found work as a freelance writer and editor for a number of blogs and news sites. I never lost my fervor for education, though – the summer days ahead of me will be peppered with tutoring sessions and meeting with students who need an extra boost while school’s out.

While planning my schedule for the months ahead, I had to keep in mind not to overload myself. It looks cool to be the one who can step up to the challenge and try to reach out to every person, but it’s simply not something you can do without giving up too much of yourself. As parents and educators, we tend to make an art form out of giving a part of ourselves up for the sake of helping another person advance. It’s pretty common during these summer months to hear and share worries with friends and family about what the kids will be doing this summer to keep busy (or to keep out of the way). We stress, we whine, and we sometimes forget to take care of our own needs while trying to control what goes on the all-important calendar during June, July, and August.

Here’s one way to keep from pulling your hair out – set a goal and let your child brainstorm activities that will help reach it. It’s one thing to have a summer project such as painting a bedroom, but how much of the thinking is being done by you? If you’re micromanaging all the details so that nobody else has a say in what goes on, don’t be surprised when you’re frustrated and everyone involved is bored with your plans. Kids are funny people like that – they’re still learning how to speak out about their opinions (however silly they can get), but their words still need to carry some weight. You might find yourself surprised at how much they know. You’ll be relieved, too, especially when everyone’s busy working on the activities they’ve planned out and you have time to sit and reflect on how awesome you are at communicating!

ENJOY the months ahead and share your thoughts on what you can do to lessen the stress that often comes with summer vacation!